Fishy tales

So Teju's fish also died. Everyone went around asking 'Why, Why, Why ?' and that too, to me, like the fish wrote me a suicide note or a plea for help. Well, technically it is true that they should ask me. Ain't i the mommy of the fishes, and if they don't ask me, who else will they ask me. Including the pater. He had his accusing eyes fixed on me to get to the bottom of the dead fish in the tank.

 Oh well.. the previous owners had it for a year and had handed them over to me with loving care and now two are dead. Not only that, we had to buy Aishu a new bowl for her new fish, as it was attacking the new orange fish after its tiny fish of Ammu's died. Now the two fish seem to be at peace. 

Now its Tejas's turn to buy a fish. He has been after me to buy a male and breed fishes. But i had done that already and no desire to do one more. 

We had 40 fishes in a 10 gallon tank at one time in the States, with just me to look after. But he is going to select a fish and he is going to make sure its going to be a male. And i have to stop him ;).  

We've been having a fish bowl with 3 fishes, a black, an orange and a gold. The tiny gold one died. It was Ammu's. We will be getting her one more fish. When i read all these blogs, i feel like with my english and previous blogs that i've read, that i should be writing too. Like they say talent is dime a dozen but only a few lay the time and effort to bring it out. but I know our end goal - is to seek god, is to seek peace, all these just help pass the time.  Mama and mami are visitng us. Its been fun.

I have so many blogs now, that i am confused as to what to write where. The need for the hour is consolidation. One is going to be a journal of taa's life and times. This is predominantly going to be my feelings as a parent . i have two blogs to figure out their meanings and purposes. 

Tejas is showing signs of recurring asthma. Shiv has been coughing for a month now and so has Tejas for two weeks. Once on asthalin, he did much better. Trust this is a one time episode and he has not become prey to the Mumbai pollution.

Aishwarya is on a winning streak.
She came first in elocution
She came second in story-telling
She has been selected for the second round of Math Olympiad
She has been chosen for a drawing competition and she submitted a fantastic drawing for it.

Tejas has been selected for Science Olympiad second round
He has been enjoying TKD so much, he is breaking things at home, loves to kick and trying to do the splits and different kind of exercises. very heartening to watch.

Ammu is amazing.
Her goal is to turn in work first, doesn't matter correct or not
She loved the Hindi class.
She loved the drawing class and insisting on having it. She is so goal driven, that she if we place a carrot in front of her, she will do anything to get it.
she is simply amazing, my barbie doll like all my other two.

I am so blessed, Enna thavam seidanai, yashodha, engum nirai para brahmam amma yendra azhaika, yenna thavam seidannai.

Being in India

is great. i get to meet my relatives atleast every month. So wonderful !!

Jaipur trip

Tejas has gone on a one week trip with his school from Oct 1 to Oct 7th we are all waiting for him to bring back exciting stories of the land of the rajputs. He has lost his camera on Day 2 already. Waiting to find a lot of new exciting things around with much love and kisses to my brave son mommy dearest.

Good Lord

i totally forgot about this site and totally about how i had to leave my iphone on my will to dearest Ammu. My kisses, my love, my hugs to my babies.. they are going through so much now. Good lord, i have changed 2 iphones by then and now on my 3rd iphone and have permanently moved continents. I have even forgot the values my kids have taught me and i wanted to write two of them by now. i am a mess today. Am crying and moping. We've moved to India and all except Tejas is still pining for his previous life in the USA. His broken heart has broken mine too. Not a day goes by without him mentioning his school MMC, his dear teacher Ms Chefan and the place where she is from - the Netherlands. i wish i could just disappear into netherlands, seeing him so sad. He is not visibly sad or moping, but his lonesome thoughts while lying down in the night, while i lie besides him, holding his hand and caressing him legs, he lets out, i wish i was in the usa. What time is it in the USA , what time is it in the Netherlands. i dont like the TKD class here mommy, when can we go back to USA. What is a mom to do ? Other then crying silent tears and bawling her head off in private, i do what most men wouldn't do - just listen and nod and agree and empathize. Its been 2 whole months and still Tejas is still broken hearted and I pray to god everyday to heal his broken heart, put a balm and anoint it, to pump it with blood till it becomes puffed and pink, so my son can soar right back up to the sky, flying having fun and just living life, like it is supposed to be. with much love, from mommy dearest